So it's 10:43 AM on a Friday morning and I'm up, but I shouldn't be because I worked from 7 PM-7 AM last night, worked Wednesday night 7-7:30 AM when I had school that day from 8-2, did clinicals Monday and Tuesday for 9 hours each day, so I should be tired and I should be sleeping. But I'm not. Part of my insomnia currently is my annoyance with nursing. In the last week I have spent 64 hours working as a nurse, but I'm not getting paid. Ya, you could reply, "but you just have to put in your time now since you're guaranteed a job when you graduate." But I'm not guaranteed a freaking job it turns out. It turns out that there really isn't a need for nurses right now. The place where I'm doing my capstone (the Infant Unit) has about 10 CNA's graduating in nursing this semester so they will hire a couple of their own but don't really need nurses in general right now so essentially, I don't have a chance. So I've been working my tail off for the last two years for no money, only to enter a time in SLC where they don't need you, and if they do they don't pay you well and you have to work crappy hours and do crappy work. Ya, I don't want to be a nurse anymore. Apparently I should've been a dental hygenist because they start out at much higher of a salary than me.
How are other locations in nursing, you ask? Well the Bay Area doesn't want me. Maybe Denver wants me. San Diego seems to have tons of openings, but I don't want to go there. I want to stay in the mountains, I want to stay with my friends for a little while longer, and I've apparently gotten myself into a pretty ideal relationship with a boy so I don't really want to give up any of those three.
I am a good nurse. I learn fast. I'm fun to work with. I'm the one responsible for a lot of the laughter that keeps the other nurses awake in the middle of the night. I've gotten excellent grades. So if the universe could just help me out a little bit and give me a glimmer of hope in getting a job when I graduate, that would be great. I guess I'll even settle for working at a nursing home where the nurses don't do anything but a couple of assessments a day. But for now, I guess I should apply to other jobs that aren't necessarily a nurse job but are somewhat in the health field. Cool, time for me to try to go back to bed now that that's off my chest.
3 comments:
San Diego's a great place. Long-distance relationship, maybe?
Oh, something will come up. Positive thinking. Imagine yourself getting a job, be determined! That is, when you are not tired!
I feel your pain. My last year of school I taught 3rd grade as a regular teacher doing twice the work of a regular teacher (and taking classes on top of that) and only getting half salary (at least I got something!) because I would supposedly be guaranteed a job in the district, or at least a much better chance. Turns out I was wrong. They weren't hiring much the next year and schools that were hired the student teachers from their own schools. Now what was I going to do? All that for nothing. So I ended up moving to Las Vegas because they were hiring like crazy and paid way more than UT. But I didn't know ANYone here. It was scary but I'm sure glad I did it. Something will turn out. I'll be thinking about you. Now go get some sleep!
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